even if you don't sleep until 12:30 in the afternoon like i did.
nevertheless, i was up and out of the house by 1:30, and for a young female, taking just an hour to get ready is a triumph.
i didn't do anything fantastically special today. my boyfriend took me shopping, and i spent too much money. i wanted new clothes for the cruise we and his parents are going on in a couple weeks. i hope my passport gets here soon. i'm a little worried i won't get it in time. which would suck.
it stormed a lot today. and yesterday. and will all week. hopefully work will be slow tomorrow. i have to be there in nine and a half hours, and i won't be sleeping any time soon. insomnia is a bitch.
my day started a little frantic. i felt hysteric, like an anxiety attack was right around the corner. sometimes i can control it, sometimes i can't. it's something i've dealt with my whole life. but as the day progressed, i finally calmed down.
like when i found out that all the people i inexplicably thought were mad at me are not. that always makes a night better. now when i check my account, that might make my anxiety resurface. i went a little wild today. >.<
i always feel guilt, even when i buy things i need. i don't really get it.
i feel a little stupid blogging about this nonsense. but i don't have anything more interesting to say.
i'm going to try and sleep after a riveting round of tetris.
adieu!
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